Sarah (Former Muslim)

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Sarah
Personal information
Country of origin    Pakistan Flag of Pakistan.png
Country of
residence
   
United Arab Emirates Flag of United Arab Emirates.png
Gender    Female
Age    36
Faith Information
Current worldview Agnosticism
Left Islam at age 14
Born or convert to Islam? Born into Islam
Parents' worldview Islam

Testimony of Leaving Islam

I was born in a sunni muslim family and I always had doubts about my religion from a very young age.I studied in a predominantly Christian school in Dubai with people of all faiths and loved learning different religions even to the extent of reading animated books with stories on religion regarding Christianity and Hinduism in particular. I remember asking myself once what if my religion is wrong and my friends/school mates religion is true.This thought used to trouble me those times.

Before reaching high school my parents immigrated to Canada and after finishing high school there I entered Med School in Canada and well thats where my life changed.

When I was in my 4th year of Med School one day a Hindu friend and colleague of mine invited me over to her dorm and we had some discussion on religion and the topic came over that they worship objects and we Muslims dont. At this she told me that you also worship a stone the Kabbah and venerate it in about the same way as we do to our Gods.I tried to convince her that its just a symbolic gesture and we actually dont worship the Kabbah itself.At this she said that we also worship our God in the form of a stone statue but we are not worshiping the stone.Its a symbolic gesture just like you kissing the Black stone and venerating the Kabbah.

I told her that I will do some research and get back on this topic with her.I thought to myself I will be able to find the answers if I look in the Quran.I never used to believe the Hadiths even when I was a Muslim because I used to doubt its authenticity.It sounded to me absurd that 230 years after the death of Muhammad the Hadiths were collected.I knew the childish game in which you whisper a word in someones ear and at the end of the circle it comes out distorted or a totally different word or just some glibber jibber. Hadiths sounded me a joke but I used to think the Quran is truth as its word of Allah.

Well in my attempt to do the research I bought myself an English Translation of the Quran.In looking for answers I read the whole Quran in English and at the end of that I observed that the book was full of repetition of stories of Arabia, contradictions, abrogations, grammar mistakes, scientific errors, hatred against jews, christians and pagans, killing and massacre orders, hatred against women and hatred against any human who is of a different faith. Imagine all these years I was a MUSLIM I had never read the Quran in english or even in urdu which is my native english. I was shocked at what I read. I had expected it to be a book from God.

I read the english translation of the Quran again and I realized that this book is written by Muhammad as their was nothing divine in it.J ust glibber jibber everywhere and I have to admit it was the most boring book I had ever read in my life till to date. Also Quran contradicts its very principle of monotheism in its own book when it says "Allah is the best of creators". There are 3 verses in the Quran where he says this. Other than the fact that he is always talking to himself in the 3rd person.

It has been 14 years now that I have left Islam from that day and I feel very happy and liberated and feel a sense of freedom that I am unable to mention in words. Over the years I have researched many websites and books like FFI, Wikiislam, mudo.org and many christian websites of David Wood, Sam Shamoun, Christian Prince, I.Q Al Rasooli and Ali Sina. But Wikiislam is like an encyclopedia you can find extreme in depth information on Islam from all the sources whether be Hadiths or Quran. I feel so blessed that I have access to all this information. Thank you so much for taking your time out and finishing this curse of Islam from this world by your website. Islam is a disease and makes its followers backward. Thats the reason all muslim nations are failed states. I hope one day we can live in a world free of religions and feel the true meaning of our existence on this beautiful place called Earth.

Thank you again.

Sarah Malek



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