Concerns with Islam: Conclusion
I learned many wonderful things on my journey to Islam, but I realized with time that Islam is a package and you have to agree to the whole thing or you are not really considered a Muslim. Many of the things I have mentioned may make Muslims feel uncomfortable even though it is all referenced from Islamic texts. Most Muslims respond to this kind of information with “I never hear of that before” i.e. implying that because they don’t know what you are talking about it is not legitimate. Others just flat out deny this information with “That’s a lie.” Of course, these people will rarely research your findings. Usually they will just stop talking to you. At the same time, they ignore the anguish of those who are suffering because of the various practices discussed in this paper.
Maybe, to some degree, I was also one of those people. Before getting married, I lived alone and came and went as I pleased. I would tell people, “Don’t you see, Muslim women are not suppressed!" Of course, I was benefiting from the American system of laws and attitudes. I was divorced but faced no marginalization as a result of living in a progressive Western nation. Here in Egypt, a divorced woman is stigmatized. She often can not work, and has to live with her brother who may not want her to leave the house very often because it could bring shame on the family. I wasn’t living freely because of the freedom’s that Islam gave me, I was living freely because of the freedom’s America had given me. Yes, Islam had given me structure and a certain level of peace, but in truth, I clearly had been taught selective information.
What I didn’t realize when I donned my hijab every day was that I was actually advertizing all things Islamic. I was advocating a global Ummah, which included all the nice things I had learned, and also the very aggressive teachings of world dominance and an imposition of all things Islamic.
How people can continue to ignore the relation between Islamic scriptures and practices and the atrocities and human rights abuses that are the result of their implementation, I just can not understand. Personally, I just can’t do it anymore.
I still firmly believe in God, modesty, sobriety, and clean living, but I have realized that I need to explore my spiritual path on my own, and not with a set dogma. Einstein once said something that embodies what I believe to be true.
"My religion consists of a humble admiration of the unlimitable superior who reveals Himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble minds. That deeply emotional conviction of the presence of a superior reasoning power, which is revealed in the incomprehensible universe, forms my idea of God."
Amen to that Albert.