Apatheist1 (former Muslim)

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Current worldview Agnostic
Born or convert to Islam? Born into Islam
Parents' worldview Islam

Testimony of Leaving Islam

At last I left Islam , it took me so long because I was a devoted Muslim a lover of Islam, but now after knowing the truth its all clear to me now.

At first I didn't believe it. I used to blind my self by saying: "I still cant ignore the fact that Islam is 100% right", but after a short time I said to my self: "What if Islam is wrong? What if Allah is just a lie?" That's when my life started to change, I realized nothing happens when I prey or call to Allah. I asked myself: "Why do I keep calling to Allah a 1,000 times and still he doesn't answer me? Why?"

I remember asking my father: "Why doesn't Allah do anything? Doesn't He want to stop evil? Why then is the world so upside down? Why doesn't he stop these wars if he is strong? Every day thousand of children die of hunger and what is Allah doing? Nothing! Why?" ( I asked my self does he enjoy this?, or is there another reason - is mankind is doing this for himself? Then there is no need for Allah. Why then should I call him my god?) Anyway, my father didn't know and he was pissed off. He just told me: "Don't ask these things about Allah, but if you must, then go and ask an imam." I didn't want trouble so I just forgot about it. Deep inside though, I couldn't forget. I can't just worship something that I cant 'trust, so I started researching about contradictions and errors and stuff that are so funny in the Quran.

I rejected it at first, but when I read it in the Quran, I didn't believe it: like the one that said the Earth was created in 6 days, but another ayah says 8 days! Or the one that said stars are missiles to shoot devils; or that the sun sets in a muddy spring. It's so funny and so wrong! I started to laugh at this stuff. How could anybody believe this? How did I believe it? One day I said: "bye bye Islam! I won't believe in a comic book called the Quran. It's also so violent! I won't believe in Muhammad because he married a 9 year old kid." Everything has changed. I know if I study well for my exam i'll pass - not because some god helped me. Or if something bad happens to you, it's not because of god or the devil. I am the one who controls my life. I always say: "How did your god come to this world?" I always have meaningless answers or I don't know. I love to read the Quran and laugh at it. On yahoo messenger I ALWAYS win in a debate,its so easy - thanks for the Quran of course.

My life now is ten times better and everything in this world has a reason. Maybe not now , but in the future we'll find out how this world was created - but by science and NOT myths; because the Quran is a man made book. It has lots mistakes and some of them are so childish; a 5 year old kid would do better than that.

Everything I listed in the Quran is all discussed in detail at Faith Freedom.

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