Salman the Persian (former Muslim)
Testimony of Leaving Islam
Firstly, many thanks to Ali Sina and all at FFI for informing and entertaining me. Most importantly, you've made me realise that once the Islamic bubble is burst it cant be patched up, neither should it be. Suddenly, the great and powerful Oz starts looking seriously sheepish.
Pakistani communities in England, such as the one I grew up in through the 1980's were, and still are, closed circles. As a teenager, Ahmed Deedat 'literature' was the closest you got to intellectual inquiry. The big lie was that it was a backward culture and not Islam itself that was the bogeyman. I now see that the ritualistic,'pavlov's dog' element in Islamic practice was the most sinister aspect. Its this that hooks you, then conditions you and finally puts the brakes on you if you seek to break away. My attachment was less emotional and more to the hollow ritual. For those who feel breaking away is an emotional wrench also, I can only feel the deepest sympathy. Its a double bind, demanding double the resolve.
Even 3 precious years studying at university didn't fully wake me up. It took a serious relationship with a non-Muslim for me to realise the uncompromising nature of Islam in matters of the heart and in what the faith allows you to joke about this realization led me take the bag of islamic bricks and just set it down for good. Having had my fill of arguments with Muslims in the real world I think I will avoid those bits of FFI forum, now that I've registered. There are plenty here to do that kind of heavy lifting better able to than me. I reckon I'll limit myself to occasional cheap satire and doofus-like observations. It keeps my infidel spirits up.
Belated New Year greetings to all of you. Salman.