Marley (former Muslim)

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Current worldview Theism
Born or convert to Islam? Born into Islam
Parents' worldview Islam

Testimony of Leaving Islam[edit]

I am 22 years old, and no longer a Muslim. I started having doubts the last few years, I would think things like "If there is Allah, why does he allow men, women and children to starve in poor countries?" or "Why does Allah not reveal himself and remove all doubt about his existence?".

I was born a Muslim, my entire family are Muslims and one of my uncles is deeply religious. He is a very smart man, which makes me wonder why he continues to believe in something which is fabricated. I have not told anybody about leaving this religion, I have left quietly, I don't know if this is the right thing to do or not. Regardless, the fact remains that I am no longer part of this religion and have no intention of returning to it in the future. It is corrupt, and preaches things I do not agree with. Why should I kill non-believers? Are they not humans, too? Did Allah not make them? If Allah is so powerful, why doesn't he kill them himself? Why should I do it and make my conscience dirty? "Oh, I killed a Jew, a Christian and a Hindu today! But I don't feel bad because I now have automatic entry to heaven and unlimited access to 70+ virgins!"... it doesn't sound right, does it?

Islam is the only religion I know of that preaches murder as a means of getting into heaven. I'm sure there are others, but I have not grown up with them, I grew up with Islam. If Allah is so merciful, why would he instruct me to kill somebody? Just because they believe in something else? Regardless of belief, we all are humans. We all have a heart, lungs, brain, etc. People must realize that before religion and skin color comes into play. We are first and foremost, human beings. There are many problems in the world today, and I have gone through many things which lead me to question the existence of Allah and the validity of Islam. So, finally I have left. My view is that people need something to believe in, to help them cope with things they cannot answer... like, what happens when we die? How was the Earth created? Maybe people need to believe, so they can claim everything is part of God's plan instead of facing up to the fact that we live in a cold, dark world full of evil people. Who knows?

I don't, I can only speculate. Whatever, I have actually felt better inside since I have left, I feel like I am free. I have been studying Buddhism and Hinduism and have been very interested in both ways of life. They are not organized like Islam and make a whole lot more sense to me than Islam ever did. For example, Buddhism states that life is full of suffering, and that is certainly true for billions of people. Same with Hinduism, I have never heard of Hindus blowing themselves up on some suicide mission, or making women cover up completely because it may attract other men. I do not know which path to follow, but I do know that Buddhism allows one to follow 2 structures. I feel I may become a Buddhist and a Hindu at the same time... both are very similar to each other, and I agree with their teachings. But that is not a decision I am making in haste, I have always admired Buddhism and Hinduism and refuse to call them religion. Mostly because I have grown to hate the word religion. It reminds me of fundamentalists, and we all know which religion breeds fundamentalists; don't we? I was disgusted with 9/11, 7/7 and the Bali bombings. Remember when the NASA shuttle crashed which contained a mixture of Christians, Jews and Hindus on board? Muslims made such a big deal, saying Allah killed them due to their beliefs. How ridiculous!

One thing I don't approve of which is related to Hinduism, is the caste system. It's an injustice, and is outdated. In fact, it should never have come about in the first place. I hate how parents place so much pressure on their children to marry within the religion and caste! It is hard enough to find a good person without worrying whether they are the right religion or the right caste! Who cares what caste you belong to? Why can't we all belong to the caste of humanity? I do not care for Brahmins, or Sudras, I care for fellow human beings.

I feel I have ranted for too long, so I'll stop now. The gist of the thread is... I have left the religion and will possibly enter the Buddhist and Hindu way of life...

I wish all of you peace and good karma

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